Sometimes I feel out of control. My heart races, and my breath gets caught in my throat. I don't want anyone to see me. I want to stay hidden. Unnoticed. I cry. I feel unsafe and vulnerable, and I worry that I will be hurt again. My friends have stopped calling. They are frustrated, because I always cancel plans at the last minute. Memories of what happened haunt me when I'm awake, and I am
afraid to fall asleep. Because of the dreams. The
repetitive, awful dreams. People say it wasn't my fault. I know that, on some level. But I can't shake these feelings of shame and regret. I feel damaged. Destroyed. Who would want me now? What do I have to offer? I'm afraid I will never enjoy a lasting intimate relationship. I want these feelings to go away. I want my life back, but I don't know if that's possible.
If you can relate to the words on this page, you know the impact of trauma. You know its devastating impact on your emotional and physical health; on your relationships and your connections with others and the world around you. THE EFFECTS OF TRAUMA AND INTERPERSONAL VIOLENCE DO NOT HAVE TO BE PERMANENT. If you have been living with fear, anxiety, depression, grief, loneliness, guilt and shame - no matter how long - please know that TREATMENT IS AVAILABLE, and it works. There are a number of evidence-based psychotherapies for trauma-related symptoms. Group therapy is also available (Current group offering: Healing After Sexual Assault: A Psychotherapy Group for Women). Please call today. Let's work together on helping you get your life back.